stuck in the past

I know that i shouldn't keep my head in the past and look towards the future but its hard when its hard not to look back.

I could NEVER stop looking back its hard for me to let go of the past, its all the memories i have. I can't just drop everything and never think about the past but i could try to never let it get to me but just some days it really gets me thinking which i shouldn't but its hard not to. Just sometimes i wish i could just go back but i can't, if only you could have everything you wanted in life right? I never thought that i could ever love someone like this before, but sometimes i just wish i could stop loving him because it hurts loving someone who doesn't feel the same as you do.

I don't think i could ever stop loving him, i've been in love with him for years i don't think i'll ever let go, but i wish i could. I'm trying to but its so hard to just stop thinking about him when hes your best friend.

Him and i have talked about it but he hasn't said anything about how he feels, but the not saying anything says it all. I don't think he could ever tell me to my face how really feels no matter if he still loves me or if he doesn't. Neither way hes never going to tell me how he feels. Even if it meant life or death. Hes not the type to talk about his feelings and probably never will. I just wish he would say something and stop hiding everything behind the hair and headphones. No matter how many times i cry to him, he'll never leave her for me.

I'm going to try to stop thinking about him but its so hard. I just want to let go sometimes but i know i could never.