tough choices

What do i do now?


I hate having to pick between two TOTALLY different things. I don't know what to do or think, it just keeps getting harder and harder everyday. I just wish somebody could pick for me because i ok well my emotions always get in the way of the RIGHT choice. I wish i knew what was going on in their head, like read their minds and whats in their heart so this would be so much easier. Theres so much reasons to choose that one, and same to choose the other. I want all theses feelings to go away already i just wanna be happy, but how can i be happy if i'm always thinking this and that about them.

Life just sucks, man. I guess, the older you get the tougher the choices get. Why can't i just let go of these thoughts? They're killing me not knowing the truth and its killing me if the truth is true. Most times i just wanna scream!! I just wanna earse my mind so i don't remember any of this. I just can't keep going on like this always wondering and never knowing. I'm to afraid to ask because of the outcome. What if it is true, what if it isn't? If it is true it just makes things worse, if it isn't then its a little easier to make myself get over it. But what to do? Man, life sucks.

i'm afraid to ask a friend to ask because they'll know that i was talking about them, to everybody which they probably know already but it would just make things worse for our friendship. God, i really don't know what to do. P L E A S E somebody just help me.