baby brother

So here's the whole story.

My mom gets pregnant.
She plans on keeping this thing growing inside of her because her boyfriend is too much of such a big cry baby so she feels sorry for her fugly loser boyfriend because he has no kids. (which you should've done a LONG time ago or at least with a bitch that doesn't have 3 kids and is old to be a grandmother of two grandkids, should've went and find yourself a younger stupid bitch for breed, not with my mom fucker. Oh but wait, you're too ugly and pussy to find somebody any better than my mom, but then again my mom is the loser for being with somebody so fugly and a jerk that all her kids hate him.) Back on point though..so she WAS about almost 3 months when she decides to keep it. Me and my older sister thinks shes a dumbass for not taking her pills like she should or at now get rid it but nooooo her and her stupid feelings. Never taking the moment to think about the stress, the weight, the sleep, and blah blah i was just thinking of her age and how she'll be too tired and stressed out to deal with a baby. For god sacks shes 42 turning 43 and when the baby is 18 she'll be 61, 6fuckin'1 OMG that is seriously old.


Yesterday she gave birth to a white looking baby with a messed up shaped head. =X(hahahahahaha sorry i just hate my mom's boyfriend, trying to not be mean about an innocent child which is my brother.)

Is it so wrong to hate something so small and helpless? Am i a bad person for thinking about never visiting my newborn baby brother? I just can't deal with all the hatred that i have for my mother's loser. I hate him. I FUCKING hate him. I wish he would die. I don't care what people say about how awful i am to say such things, but if you hear how stupid he acts to my mom, and she just takes it you wouldn't be so kind to say nice about him.

My heart beats hard and my blood boils when i see his fuckin' face. I hate him. I don't care if he was driving home, drunk and his car go into a spin..i would pray that happens.

But the lord seems to work in his weird ways. Isn't it weird that my mom's baby was almost born on my dad's birthday? Weird. It would be so funny if the baby was. He doesn't even look like my mom or that fucker. But then again he was just born, but still my son looked like his father but after a few weeks he began to look like his mommy. Whatever, not like i'm gonna be around to see that kid grow. Shame my dad didn't kill him, that night, so many nights ago, years ago when they got into a fight because my mom's loser was drunk.

I feel sorry for the kid. Growing up with a mother who only babys her children, and a loser for a father who can't even wash dishes or stop smoking weed or drinking. Well i don't know if he has but when i walk into that house, it just stinks. I hate that smell. It burns my eyes and my lungs. I fucking hate him.